June 2009, at the ripe age of 46 (will be 49 in Nov) I purposed in my heart to live, having survived a mentally abusive marriage of 10 yrs (dated 7 yrs prior), relocating to a city where I knew NO ONE compounded by single parenting, 2 yrs of unemployment, foreclose, repositions, depression, brokenness and despair only to come to the point in my life where I now stand, RENEWED.
I was alive but not living, breathing but not feeling, conscience but not aware. I vaguely recall clothing myself in “green with envy” as a friend from church began taking actions to lose weight. I would often say to myself how much I wish it were me until one day I decided to no longer stand idly by but take matters into my own hands. I renewed my gym membership at the local commercial gym in addition to using the gym fully paid for at the office…yes I know…tisk tisk tisk.
One evening at the gym I was offered a personal training session, guess and while I gathered a lot of useful tips concerning the proper way to use the equipment and proper form, nothing was more impactful than the following statement the PT shared. “This is an 80/20 process, 80% diet/20% exercise”. He further explained that the more effective and fail proof way to reach a healthy weight and obtain a body I could be proud of was first made in the kitchen. I’ve been 100% clean eater since May 2009.
I realized quickly that creating and executing a workout routine was way out of my area of expertise so I forfeited owning a car in exchange for training sessions. During the intake I was asked what were my short and long term goals? Can you say clueless! I knew I didn’t want to give the standard “girly” answer of wanting to be toned so without much thought I said body build…I let it rest then repeated….yeah I want to be a bodybuilder. Little did I know that this external restructuring would have as much of an internal repair mechanism as it did to my physical structure. The place I least likely would be found was the place where I was found. I’ve often said that once my outsides caught up with my insides I was going to be certifiably dangerous.
To date I have competed in four shows
- Monster Mash Oct’10 placed 9th Novice/8th Masters
- Northern KY Feb’11 placed 2nd Masters
- North American (National) placed 4th new Women Physique division
- Mr.Mrs. Indiana (OCB) placed 2nd Masters, 1st Novice tall, 1st Open tall
Oxygen Success Stories April 2011